Sometimes I keep trying to open a door that is locked, or blocked, or stuck. I forget to look to see if there is another door to go through because I am stubborn and feel like I can keep trying, even though it is a total waste of my time.

I get signs — weird but true. Crows chasing an eagle and then seeing a second eagle in the same day. Pink spots in my vision after a highly spiritual moment with one who is transitioning from life to the divine. I get tingly feelings up my legs, arms, or back when praying with another, or when people are thinking about me right before they call or text.

I don’t think it is unusual, and I am not a “medium” — but I am a chaplain and a highly tuned-in spiritual person. I can feel the room and often know what is behind the curtain. I believe that we all have a sixth sense, or intuition, or a gut feeling about things. Sometimes we just have to slow down to feel or to sense it.

Before I chose to work for a hospice company, I was pretty independent and had a few things going. I was asked in the initial interview how I was going to be able to do all the things listed on my CV. I said I would cut back, and I did. I pulled away from positions and from Jump Intuit.

I have been going in and out of a door that has grown more and more stuck, until yesterday, when I closed it and locked it behind me. Locked — because when I make plans, God laughs and then gives me signs that things are going to change. And change they did. Within 24 hours I went from pushing the door open to understanding the door needed to be shut.

Once I figured that out, it was easy. The physical stress of pushing open the door was getting to be too much, but closing it, locking it, and walking away gave me a sense of freedom and relief that I had not felt in a long while.

I talked with friends who were proud of me for my actions. My mother was pleased as well, and that is no small thing for her to say. I slept well and woke with a feeling of excitement about what is to come — the door that is wide open.

Revelation 3:7-8 — “What he opens no one can shut, and what he shuts no one can open… I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut.”

As I write this, I feel the tingling wave throughout my body. I call this a God wink — and I am blessed.